| Dear D.N.K, It has been 2 years since you and I officially got together. Within those two years, we had 11+ months of memories, pictures, and love. Then we had 12+ months of my misery, pain, and heartbroken-ness. You've crossed my mind every single day since we first met, and even now, two years later, there's no exception. But this time it's different. For the past twelve months, my mission has been to get over you. I've written endless songs and journal entries, kissed plenty of assholes, drank a ton of alcohol, joined a bunch of activities, and have just generally become a different person, all in hopes of finally forgetting you. But I can't forget you. Nor do I want to. We did have some good times, and in my heart they are irreplacable. However... while I cannot forget you, I can get over you. And I know I finally, truly, completely did. How do I know this? When I looked at the clock in my car tonight and saw that it was 12:34 a.m., May 25... I didn't...even... care. I've paid my dues. I've cried my tears. You are a distant memory that some day I can tell my children when they ask me who I lost my V-card to. As much as I want to say you weren't my first love, I can't say that I spent a year getting over someone who wasn't. So you were. Congratulations... not that big of a deal. There will be others in my life, other loves who won't hurt me the way you did. I depended so much on you. I relied on you for my happiness and strength. Through us breaking up, I have learned how to be my own person and find my own joy. That was probably the best lesson I learned throughout this entire ordeal. Though I should probably thank you for breaking my heart. If you hadn't dumped me, I would have never joined extracurriculars, and would never have the substantial amount of friends I have today. I would have never gotten voted on the Homecoming court, would have never learned the lessons I learned my senior year, and definitely for sure would have never been accepted to Villanova. So thank you for being the catalyst that propelled me to live up my last year of high school and secure my future. I hope you're happy, and I mean that sincerely. You did treat me well, and I won't forget it. But I'm done wasting my days thinking about you. I have nothing to get over anymore. I wish you luck with your life, and I'm so glad I get to move on with mine. I'm finally done living in our past. "It's alright, it's okay. I'm so much better without you. I won't be sorry, so don't you bother what I do. No matter what you say, I won't return. Our bridge has burned down. I'm stronger now. I'm so much better without you. I won't be sorry." - Lori |
